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My wife writes poems

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detail from painting by Mary Winifred Hood Schwaner

My wife writes poems

My wife writes poems as email drafts, in the tub
with the door cracked open, she won’t compose

in a document because that seems too permanent,
she says.Usually I walk in at some point to check

on her and she’s writing but she may be looking at
houses for sale, thousands of houses, here, there,

in Providence, Rhode Island, in Greece, in Fall River
Massachusetts, or she may be reading about process

theology, but often enough she’s writing poems and
at times the email draft doesn’t save and that poem

is lost forever, like a house someone else bought, we’ll
never know what it’s like inside or how the light settles

in each room, and I’m usually drinking wine, or coffee,
depending how late she takes her bath, and she will read

to me what she’s written, or show me pictures of six
bedrooms in a house that is overpriced or underpriced.

When I wake up every night and can’t sleep and hear her
soft breathing beside me, her forearm draped over me,

I am tempted to move her arm, get out of bed, open her
phone and look at her poems, written by her as she

lay immersed in warm water, exposed but protected
like in a dream, and find the right person to send each

poem to, one to Jesus, to St Augustine, to her grandma
who visited her once from the unaddressable beyond,

here’s one to the spirit of the flesh, and to the floating
spirit, and to the minute still to pass, and this one’s

for me, this too, and here’s one for you, if you read
you will understand, and another, and for you, you.

This crushing craft

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This crushing craft

Inevitable shadows.
This crushing craft of being

a parent without parents.
Falling from a tree

As a nine year old.
Mapping the light as it spirals

Out of my dizzy eyes. Rattled
By reality’s gravity. Then the light

Gathered into the sun,
The swimming shadows into leaves.

The earth slowed down until
I could stand again. Now the sense

Is more of a sliding away decade,
Wonder with a sideshow of work.

*

In the south one day by a public library
An elephant’s trunk reached out for me

Through the temporary circus fencing
And I reached back. The vine of muscle

Coiled almost to my shoulder and held.
For a full minute we stood there

In a terrible freedom, neither of us letting
Go as everything else spun into shadow.

The green volume

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The green volume

April is soft green and spiders.
The wind has its green voice back,

Alphabet of letters all looking alike
And green gravediggers burying

The brown memories
Before they can be missed.

Flowers set upon each other
Like dogs or wolves we’ve not seen

Since first in love we glimpsed
A world to taste and tear apart.

Meanwhile in yet to happen May
All green darkens like a banker’s visor

As sun slants beyond a high Wednesday
Afternoon window. Counting coin for June.

The other May’s the underside of maple,
Adding dimension, staying light, twisting

Minutes, filling the green volume.

To a Japanese maple in mid-April

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To a Japanese maple in mid-April

The heavy spring rain pulled the night
All the way to the ground. Like shattered glass

It lay through dawn in the hollow. When I rose
The sky was the blue of starting over

But not forgetting. The stars had crawled
Up your trunk and were asleep in their green study.

The broken darkness, unsteady in daylight, lurched
Gracefully, two black swallowtails

Like dizzy memories of other nights that fell
To earth and survived the day.

 

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Author’s note: This Japanese maple, located in Afton, Virginia, provided the leaves for the leaf-print illustrations in my new book Wind Intervals.

April Evening

April Evening

In the sweet air we want to take off our socks
And the song of the grass is softening

In the dark something moves slowly across space
Even the wind is taking its time

The silver maple’s a month early getting leaves
I feel that way too — for each heartbeat that flies from me

Tonight there’s a silent starling waiting in the walnut grove

Visible Space

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Visible Space

On the sky press even the spaces must be set in metal
And sit above the text of dreams to print night’s pure black.

Sometimes that space like the space between us
Slips into the day and rises above the waking words

and becomes visible space. It ascends from the pull
of the moon and pushes forward like a panther,

Like a runner in a darkening wood who suddenly sees
The trees don’t block the path, they make the path.

Humpback Rocks, Early Spring

Humpback Rocks, Early Spring

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So I took you up with me
to this chiseled place

where the clouds are closer
than their shadows

The whisper among the trees
a shout of bark and lichened rock

Mountainside trees stand differently
shaped by cascading arrangement

higher up where the wind is so loud
you no longer register it as sound

all I hear is the noise of trees bending
against each other, ajar to the invisible

like doors opening all around me

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from Spring Songs (8)

from Spring Songs (8)

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Nothing more can happen in April so I am waiting
The rain is waiting too clouds simmering in the south

The grass wants to touch you but looks away waiting
The buildings with their hands in their pockets

Gather quietly but keep a respectful distance
the afternoons light as if held up by balloons

The month has filled out the world so much its last
day will be empty it will need a day to decompress

The last hours gather around you like referees
watching an instant replay because nothing more

can happen: you have to compress the month
in your mind while the days decompress

so quickly that your memory leaps in slow motion
and the hours nod and blow their whistles

A string stretching across the stars and sky draws closer
a jump-rope in slow motion at the top of its arc

Just before you hear the sound of its rasp
on the sidewalk you must skip casually

into May your soul barely leaving the ground
because it is all so light now and you want to come back

National Poetry Month Reading, April 6th @1pm

Just a short note that I’ll be participating in a National Poetry month event again this year, this time at the Massanutten Regional Library, Main branch in Harrisonburg. The reading is at 1pm and will feature four poets, including Angela Carter, Sara Robinson and Rebecca Lilly.

If you happen to be in the Shenandoah Valley in a few weeks, come by! Len, I’ll buy you some coffee (or wine) if you can make it from Turkey. Esther, come on now! The other side of the world is not that far away from Harrisonburg, as the moon flies. C, the weather in Seattle is horrible–you’d come on over to the East coast for day, even to hang out with a Patriots fan, right?

I know there are a bunch of you in my clan much closer. If you’ve got nothing better to do on the first Monday afternoon in April, maybe I will see you there? More info on the Massanutten Regional Library can be found and its other events can be found here.

As with my last reading at Bridgewater College, I will entertain any suggestions for what to read. I will have about ten minutes to read, so will probably read five poems or so. Thoughts?

This lamb has very strong opinions on what I should read but for some reason is remaining mum.

This lamb has very strong opinions on what I should read but for some reason is remaining mum.