On a night of grief
light snow stings like glass: your eyes
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Outside In
Outside In
The garden is in the recluse, not the other way around.
You rivers and mountains pale against the heights and gorges
She must climb. I am the hand in her mind where thought gets tough.
I am the step suddenly appearing. In the calm harvest fields I know
I have often been missing, off on the mountain’s other side.
But in the slow running river my boat is not far away,
she’ll call a breeze to fetch me faster than words paddle. Here in her
garden, I’ll meet the better me, nodding as I pass on my way to her.
Two short poems, considering Qianwan
Qianwan, or On Looking Up Several Times to the Horizon While Reading
There is no shape of the tree
though we identify the tree by its shape
what I see in trees and steel sky
is patience and distance
Qianwan, or Some Thoughts at Ground Level
If river ice or puddle ice breaks
under the weight of the waning moon
what we’ll find beneath is the waning moon
can I love you any more fully beneath this sheath of being?
Weiquan
Weiquan
The trees have long been silent
the strongest wind coaxes only a hum
Or hiss but sometimes
outside my window the downed leaves
Still murmur like a river
calling a kingfisher home
Two Views from a Window, with Spiders
Afternoon view
Dimming roof. A scratch in the window
autumn’s spiders’ work can’t touch
catches January sun’s sleepy look back
Morning view
Way up a contrail drifts
over the roof like a lost spider’s thread
missing the tree by miles
The Future
Like a terminal bud, the future sits in dark resilience, weathering the present’s timeless winter, wrapped in the protection of tight embryonic leaves of the past, of memories packed in but not yet ripened which will unfold at the right moment, under accidental warmth or the persistent downpour of circumstance, they will unfold, crowning and surrounding that which has not yet happened in sudden green gestures growing as they are revisited and directing the warm rain of the mind to the center where the fruit is forming. All the colors of the spring are memories blooming and feeding the future. All this time we have misunderstood the past, blamed it for distracting us from the task at hand; it was never like that. Wasn’t the task at hand always shoveling snow? Wasn’t it always salting the walkway? Still we could not escape the present as we cannot escape a blizzard, the white-out of no context, the compulsion to turn one’s head from a cold wind. And when the future is finally ready, when the memories darken slightly in their turn across the sun’s ninety faces then the present will come, not knowing why it is coming, as bee or bird or squirrel come but do not know why, and take the future on the only journey it cannot travel itself. And if we wonder why we lose the memories it is because their work is done, they can finally loosen and twist away in the tug of the present. Already we will have forgotten what it was specifically that was done, the hand on your back lightly, the walk through the teeming streets, but it will have served the reason for that touch, its continuing love, it can be forgotten for the love is still waiting, just ahead, it has never left you, it has always come back, even as the ground beneath you stiffens with frost, it is what makes you see beauty in the momentary lapse of attention to the present which we mistake for the present moment, beautiful even in the coldest full moon of the year bright on the metal roof of an empty house.
Winter Moon Waxing
Winter Moon Waxing
No bird in the bare trees this evening
No rain or wind, no snow’s cushioned silence.
The twisted branch is capped, the sap beneath waiting
The clouds are without qualities this mild lonely night
In hours with wind from the north their drift would be enough
Even the moon behind them is too bland
Oh where is the weather to absorb sorrow
This vacant dark not empty only reflects
Drinking Wine with Li Po
Drinking Wine with Li Po
The bottle-less nights dead-man’s-float on the drifting water
the moon’s cup fills with early January
until it is sideways with days but nothing spills out
these brown maple leaves hanging on by mistake
like old hands brush against me
I know them but they do not recognize me
but still they reach out: old moon keep your drink
I do not wish to embrace you
Cold Night
Cold Night
the moon smiles thinly
brittle stars laugh — even I
can walk on water
Early Winter
Early Winter
on the mountain road
what looks like snow acts like rain
will I see you soon?