November hymnal (13)
No silence tonight. The light bulbs hum.
The washer in the basement sends
a thick pulse through the walls and floors.
Cats scratch carpet. Steam surges
up pipes to the radiators in the bedrooms.
When I turn everything off, grief is singing,
in the dark outside a house in my mind,
and though it’s in a foreign language,
each November I know a few more of the words.
In that song everything rhymes, leaves
pushed into a pile by the rain, my mother’s
favorite paintbrush, an old recipe typewritten
and amended with a blue Bic pen. No matter
what you try to throw in the song, it’s in perfect
harmony with grief. November night. A low
front off the coast. A bad painting of a mocking
bird by an artist we never knew. No silence.
But not a bad painting at all.
love this
Thank you.
It wasn’t easy, but I’ve come to appreciate those times when every sound, every shade of light, takes me back, as if bringing them back.
And those moments, themselves, aren’t always easy, but I don’t think that part of the process will ever go away.