Six late winter mornings
1.
It’s the underlined day
On the calendar of forgiveness.
But I cannot make the call.
2.
I get up early
To let the dogs out but
It’s too cold–they stay on the porch
As if waiting for a ride to pull up
Or a drink. I walk to the back yard
And relieve myself
Against the frosted grass.
3.
The black rabbit
Lounges in his hut
By the family vegetable garden.
He often rode on the back of our dog.
One day he lay on his side,
Not waiting for the morning
Or for us to find him.
He was finished and he went.
Leaving only a stiff black shroud
And the sound of birds.
Winter leaves like that.
4.
In our blizzard-crafted snow cave
We almost died
But the snow plow missed us as we hid.
Years later, my childhood friend Marty
in his capacity as a civil servant
of the public works
Tore up a curb with his plow right
Across the street from
Where we’d once schemed
How to pay for the garage window
We broke with a barrage of snowballs.
5.
After an early March storm
I snuck out before my son woke
To make lumps in the snow
Like snake coils surfacing.
Over breakfast I swore
I saw the Loch Ness Snow Monster
Out the bay window in the plow drift:
When we went to investigate
He discovered a large egg
Of ice, snow, and dirt
By the edge of the plowed pile.
He demanded we take it inside.
We put it in the freezer
To see what would hatch.
6.
Spring grows over the winter
Like a scar
The hurt season’s swelling
Diminishes
We almost over-reach for it
As if we prefer being sore
Over forgetting, a cloud
Ceiling over empty blue sky.
I have known that sixth morning and wondered when the healing would begin.